Today I experienced being hungry, genuinly hungry. So I checked in with myself. Was I hungry, angry, tired, bored? I was truly hungry, drowsy and falling asleep, and really needing to eat something if I was not going to pass out. Only problem was… no fruit, veggies, or nuts in my backpack. Weight Watchers Meeting have taught me to be prepared. Very rarely do I experience hunger when I follow Weight Watchers guidelines. This is the difference between eating right and being on a “diet”. Normally if I am wanting to eat, it doesn’t have anything to do with actual hunger. Likely it is a gut level response to avoid what I am emotionally triggered about. 
I have been experiencing a reprieve from the compulsive eating compulsion. I had been on a wonderful pink cloud of no desire to eat compulsively. The last couple of days, I ended the day a point or two under, mainly due to the amount of exercise I have been getting riding my bike to work and back. Yesterday, I went to yoga and took a long walk with my World Class Athlete Husband. I racked up quite a few activity points and I didn’t realize I wasn’t eating enough until the hungrys came on me. This I learned could be a slippery sloap, I found myself wanting a bagel! That is a BIG warning sign. This gluten free girl knows what is happening when the wheat cravings come on, and suddenly out of no where, I start dreaming of bagels. So I breathed in love for my body and asked myself: What have I done lately that satisfies hunger and works with my food plan?”

I find myself walking around town looking for something that would feed my body and soul and fit my bank account. The Downtown area I work in is like working in a shopping mall. Food is everywhere and I smell it all day long. First, I went to Jamba Juice where I know I can get a 4 point smoothie with a 12 gram protein boost for a extra point. I decided I wanted to eat not drink my second breakfast so I stepped out and saw a Subway. Aha! I remembered the egg white omelet on a whole grain english muffin choice from before I started the gluten free trial. 9 points later because I ordered avocado instead of fake cheese,. It was delicious but brought my two breakfasts today up to 12 points. I normally have a 5 point breakfast. Looking back on it, as much as I loved that little breakfast sandwich. I realize I was looking for that full feeling. I would have felt better with the smoothie. Not to mention I slipped right out of my gluten free experience and ate the wheat. It wasn’t a bad choice as far as Weight Watchers recommends but didn’t fit my gluten free trial experience.
I feel great about riding my bike to work today. It has been satifying to the body and spirit. I can’t imagine why I did not jump on my bike sooner, despite the fact, I left myself a little unprepared. Tomorrow, I will plan my day better and take some fruit and 11 almonds with me, and my list of 4 point Jamba Juice choices in case I get hungry. They are Mango Mantra, Banana Berry, Tropical Kickstart, Berryful Filling, Carribibean Passion, Orange Apeel, Strawberry Nirvana. Remember to ask for them to Lighten them up! I realized three important things: how easily I can abandon a wonderful eating plan when I let myself get hungry; how important it is to eat my extra points, and always have a plan for difficult moments!
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Posted: July 29th, 2012 under Bicycle Blog, Thoughts on Compulsive Eating, Uncategorized.
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